Carousel of dreams

2011-05-30T13:31:00.000+08:00

This blog seems to be my refuge (:
Whenever i begin to feel :( over things i turn to this blog
Havent been blogging about those :( things that happened to me this year
cos i have my dear Eileen and Hisyam that listens.
They are like my pillar of support (:
<3 them to the max

I miss how i used to repeadtedly want to watch Kdrama and yet study
I rmb how i would reward myself every week to BOF. hahaha. FUNNNNEH

I'm feeling so cui cos i havent been studying since the exams ended. have been slacking like shit.
I NEED SOMEONE TO DRILL IT INTO ME.
I NEEDA FIND BACK THE EAGERNESS I HAD IN SEC 4 TO SCORE WELL.
i lost it ):
I guess its cos i dont have the same people around to walk on this journey with me
& it sucks to not have you guys around ):
esp how we cared for one another and how the teachers helped me tiredlessly
unlike now. ONLY KNOW HOW TO SCOLD >:(
oh well, maybe its cos no one else can replace those ppl in my hearts..
i think we really need to take time off to catch up with one another man!!!

Better to be late than to never say it at all

2011-01-23T11:26:00.001+08:00

Afterall, what i felt was true. :'(

I've finally got it out of my system.
said it too late but what's meant to be will be.
got to either have faith or clear it totally.
i can't decide. :/
I believe in fate but i believe in controlling our fate too.
I hate it when people don't make up their mind.
So, make up your mind and go for it.
STOP LETTING UR MIND LINGER P.L.E.A.S.E
For the sake of all of us, make a choice, make it clear.
YES OR NO.
don't like it when people play with their language.
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I think we'r losing someone from our morning clique.
If just so happends that you read this, i guess you already felt it.
You are changing. Wait.
How about, you've changed.
Can't confide in you anymore.
I hope we won't turn into being mere acquaintances.

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Recently, i keep feeling like nobody understands.
I try to convey everything
I feel like confiding in you but i feel like i shouldnt
cos i know alittle too much about you.
and that it enough to make you think i'm trying to sway your opinion.
Hockey, school and everything is making me breathless
Screw it.

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People say girls think too much but what we feel is true most of the time.

2010-12-27T09:50:00.000+08:00

HI WORLD! (:

This lazy bum just came back from running!
I've decided against deleting my blog or going on for an even longer hiatus. :D
This holiday has been really boring with tons of homework
Havent been really going out or having fun
& it seems like nobody jio me for countdowns, trek, slack or have fun!
People are always waiting for me to plan! :< Hahaha

Still, some random meetups were awesome (:
Like with PJ, Asyraf, Hayat and Daniel.

Took lots of crazy pictures with them which asyraf has yet to upload. grrr.

Jamming was fun but lets lower the pitch by abit please. HAHA

Met up with my cousins on 21st at Orchard for buffet & i almost died please.

Had horrible gastritis the next day. :< (sounds profound but it just means gastrics. heheh)
I strongly recommend against Sakura! It's not because it caused me to have gastritis or anything but because the food it really not worth 29 bucks!

My couz's 21st birthday + shopping for her gift.

It was really funny to think that we walked the whole orchard to get gifts for her but i think she really loves them :D

Internship at Dr Nyam's clinic was great too.

Lots of life lessons learnt and i realised i will have to consider thoroughly if i really want to study Medicine. Dropping out of medicine is never an wise option!! & he witnessed alot of medicine students dropping out so i must really consider thoroughly :<

I must get back my momentum to study! -.-

Stopped for 2 whole weeks cause of internship and here i am blogging. HAHAHA

Lots of homework to rush through too!

bless me please. HAHA.

PS. studying, gossiping, crapping with bestfr no 2. every sunday is really funnneh.

& CAT/bestfr no 1. please be free SOON. hahaha

When i try to keep myself sane, you tip me over again.

I don't want to be like bestfr no 2. HAHAHA.

i'm glad i have my bestfrs to keep me in line once again. :D

2010-11-24T00:04:00.001+08:00

F*** MY LIFE ):

2010-11-04T19:40:00.000+08:00

I'M SO DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF OVER SO MANY RUBBISH THINGS ):
results.. )':
my commitment? hockey?
my head.
Oral presentattionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!

The memories i held so dear to was so important. I mind you, was.
Eventhough i anticipated the end of those 3 years. It's past tense.
The past is probably now just a fraction of the memories that i've been holding on to.
& it will remain this way.
Either that or i'll abandon them soon
& though my MBTI says that my feelings often rule my head,
I will reverse it and I can. DEKIMASU.

However, another cumbersome situation looms.
I need a clear mind, no more grey areas please?
I need a clear mind to sort my thoughts out.

I can't contradict myself again.

2010-10-18T19:59:00.000+08:00

Aren't humans hard to decipher?
I had this talk in school today about relationships in general
and we played a few games and there was one where we have to write one belief we have onto a tape and tape it to someone's back.
Somehow the speaker chose to talk about mine and discussed with the 2 classes about how this person who wrote that sentence is like based only on that sentence i wrote.
& i realised how close their descriptions were.

Amazingly, humans are able to mask certain things so well.
Humans don't show certain emotions and thoughts
Don't expect others to show them so readily, you have to GAIN TRUST before they unveil themselves.

2010-09-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

Everytime i'm here, i complain and whine.
People who view my blog must be very turned off. (though i aint sure who reads)
Can't help it though, this seems to be the best way to vent anger. :)

I must say, J1 year was really crazy and its going to end soon with promos around the corner.
I don't think i performed well throughout the year. Results were really bad. ):
Still, I'm going to end it with a big bang k!
I CAN DO IT(:
Going to do more revision of everything!

2010-09-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

I'm freaking stressed abt the promos in 1 week's time thn you'r saying don't add on to ur problems?!
All u know is you you you and yourself. What about me now? How many bloody things that I didn't say cos I was afraid to 'give you more problems'???

AHHHHHH.

Pray for strength

2010-09-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

You can cry while you'r bathing,
you can cry while walking in the rain
you can scream when the noise level of the renovation works is too high
Still, wear that smile on your face after that.

Even if things go so wrong that you are crumbling inside,
you'll still have to put up a strong front
as if everything is fine.

Again and again, "Be strong"
Thats what they say
but somehow they never know how hard it is to be strong
Even if it's hard to accomplish, do it for the sake of her because it's even harder for her.

2010-08-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

YOG is over but i kinda miss it now ):
Fun friends i've made make my day when i feel so crap for missing lessons. :D
Merly is out of stock too and i was really really upset but its good cause i cant waste money. :P

Training this thursday was fab (:
Did gym and stickworks!
(Capt) Christabel gave me 1 on 1 tutoring and i managed to learn alot.
I hope my skills can constantly improve thn i can fight into the teammmmmm.

These feelings come and go
and it makes me unsure of what i really want.
I'll see how it goes.
As long as i try my best, i think i wont regret.

2010-08-06T22:39:00.001+08:00

An extrovert is not always an extrovert.

Although I used to believe in the stereotypes of your kind;
You guys judge too much
And stop the stereotyping and stop thinking you are cooler than us cos u guys are not.
I feel so screwed everytime cos of u all, damm the stereotyping. ( "just not my type")
What funny benefits do u guys get from sterotyping. :/
Most of u get into elite primary/secondary schools because of family background, not because u initially deserved to be.
Seriously, hell with stereotyping.
My dearest friends from what i call a truely bonded and not superficial class, I've yet told u guys cos idk how to start saying. :(
Stop thinking you guys are cooler than us.

2010-08-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

I think i'm not ready to fight for team.
It's too hard.
4km still considered little, my first time 24:42, i thought it was pretty good. -.-
more hell to come.
Prepared to sacrifice 100%? No. Only 50%
I think i have merely 10% chance of getting in.
& i think the coach hates me. :/
SIAN TO THE MAX.

School's not very nice to me either but thanks to Janine, Hui lin and Kar ying, i managed to laugh alot. (:

ANW, I MISS JURONG KIDS.
MEET YOU ALL TMR. <3

2010-07-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

Committing suicide is reading too much into their actions and words.

Prove you wrong.

Soon.

I hope so.

2010-07-08T16:42:00.001+08:00

This is MAD.

C for Bio,
B for Chem,
D for Math,
Probably E for Econs,
B for Chinese,
S for GP.

Hell with preparing so much for bio and chem. Ahhh, maybe I just didn't put in enough effort.
I ended up getting these grades.
& oh, no wonder they say CCDE for Promos in order to be promoted. :/
I'M SO GOING TO CAMP AT HOME AND MUG MY LIFE OUT OF ME.
I SO MEAN IT.
I cant stand my grades. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Maybe never so hard. :/

2010-07-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

为什么在听那首歌时感觉怪怪的？

2010-06-22T17:22:00.001+08:00

The sudden surge of emotions is making me miss the good old times.
):

Miss;
how we used to eat snacks during lessons
how we used to scream cause we can't stand the load on our shoulders, or just cause we felt like it.
how we used to scream out of the windows to shout for the teachers' name and then hide.
how i reacted cause of the heat wave, the insects and the cranky jokes
how i silly i was when i dropped the pen on my head. ( Only Mr tan, hisyam, weiguang and I know)
how the eraser flew across the classroom! haha
how we pranked Ms tang and Mr tan and got tricked back. -.-
how we used to laugh out loudly (& can't stop)
and then burst into laughters again because someone else is laughing so hysterically once I/you stopped.
how we rush to and fro Mac or 399, .... to get food.
how we supported one another.

I always repeat what i've said. Haha.
But, good times are meant to be remembered right?
(:

2010-06-15T12:00:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY AM CLUELESS ABOUT WHAT KIND OF CAMP I SIGNED UP FOR NOW.

I'm SO DEAD.

I'll be stuck at pasir rism from tmr till friday! GOSH.

I hope everything is going to be fine and that the kids wouldn't be a pain in the neck.
I hope i can use my phone (: So i won't feel 'crippled' HA.
& No iphoney for me ): NO GAMES TO PLAY IF I'M BORED.
I really hope i won't get too dirty man. NO MUD, CRAZY STUFF PLEASE. NO WATER TOO.
OMG.
& I'VE TONNES OF STUFF TO REVISE FOR WHEN I'M BACK.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2010-06-07T09:43:00.003+08:00

AM SO HAPPY THAT I'M GOING TO MEET PJ AND QT THIS WEEK TO STUDYYY. >:]

(I hope my pw meeting is not gg to clashhh! ): )

YOU BET WE ARE SO GOING TO STUDY

& SO MANY PICS IS GOING TO APPEAR! (:

AWWW, I MISS YOU GUYS (:

& CG ON FRIDAY. like YAY.

I have a lil secret to share.

I feel like dancing again. but it's been at least 8-9 years since the last time i really danced.

My limbs are probably too stiff ): & i'm not flexiblee. ):

How i love ballet! how? ):

I don't even know why my mummy make me stop lesssons ):

2010-06-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

I bought a new ceiling light today! (:
I chose it & its prettaye! (:
but i didn't use it today cause i didn't touch my books.
I'll work harder tmr! I will (:

I can. I will. I must. :E

2010-06-03T20:54:00.002+08:00

How can i be not afraid.
There are just too many things that makes me
doubt if what I'm doing now is really the best possible choice.
Just another frigging lifeless soul.
Idk why I'm so frustrated but
Get back on track,
you don't want a wake up call to knock you out of your senses again.
Do you?
You've come this far, keep going eventhough it's hell.
Perservering makes you braver. :)

2010-06-01T12:03:00.001+08:00

This is so frustrating when i work out my schedule and that damm PW ruin the whole thing!

Doubt

2010-06-01T08:23:00.000+08:00

will you still have the determination that you used to have
for now its a different world

lovelies

2010-05-17T22:24:00.001+08:00

CAT, PJ, SY AND QT!
I LOVE YOU ALL! (:
How i wish i can hug all of you at one go NOW! hahaha.
Love how you guys give me encouragements(:
Oh, one more best budd, hisyam! hahaha.
Cos i know true friends stay so i don't need one like her. (:
Although the sucky feeling will stay, but i'll get better!
I'm proud to be from JURONG too!! (:
<333

2010-05-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

sad thn really mad.

you certainly meet at the damm requirements in my list of people i don't want to meet.
Fine, acquaintance?
It shall be.

2010-05-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

EVERYTHING IS MY EFFING FAULT, NOT YOURS OKAY.
FINE.
I can't imagine how you guys talked behind my back.
Merely 4 to 5 months of knowing you guys.
Really really disappointed.
As in, it might be my freaking fault that my attitude is sucky to you
but yours in treating others is not as good or better off alright
I really can't imagine how you guys pretended that everything is fine in front of me
Now i finally understood what is 笑里藏刀。
A real life example man.

Have you ever thought why i stopped talking much to you?
It was because of your attitude to me,
because of how highly you think about yourself,
because of how you look down on ppl,
because of how you ignore about ppl's feelings.

I should never trust anyone AGAIN.
To the person i told that i couldn't really hang out with you, i'm speechless.
I thought you were someone nice that i can really hang out with, share my thoughts with.
I shouldn't have let down my guard.
shouldn't have.

You guys may have came from a better school.
You guys may be smarter than me.
but you guys have no right to look down on neighbourhood school students.

Maybe i should have chosen jurong or poly.

2010-05-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

You just can't very well much imagine the CRAZY URGE that i am suppressing.

& that is to shout at you in your face.

Why in the rubbish should i be enduring ur uncooperative, smug, irritating etc attitude.

Currently, only you can start me off with swearing that four letter word.

i will let u have the honour of setting that standard for me.

So going to continue shutting up when you are within the radius of 2metres from me

Practice endurance!

2010-05-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

On friday,

Mice hugged Cat
Mice took pictures with Cat. (In the handicap toilettt!)
Mice made Cat feel pepperrry! (:
so, Mice and Cat ate pepper lunch. Yummyumm
Mice and Cat gossiped (healthy gossip okay!) hahahah
Mice and Cat shopped around JP for awhile
Mice and Cat promised to buy that shoe in Rubi togetherrrr :D
Mice promised Cat to go out in June! Hopefully after your exams (:
Cat hugged Mice.

Happyhappysweet evening(:
luvluv.
I'm waiting for you to load the 2 pictures.
& i'll bring my camera the next meetup so we can snap like mad. :D:D
wear nicenice k! COS WE ARE GG TO GO TO TOWN, NOT SCHOOL. :P
Jiayou cat and mice! hahaha

2010-05-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

Teach me how to react cos i still feel so out of the environment at times
& it makes me feel really really x 10000 stupid.

You are very quiet today.

She'll say

2010-05-01T15:23:00.000+08:00

Towering amount of assignments, physically demanding CCAs & that stupid PW are sucking us dry.
Still, to my dear friends (& well, to myself too) , 加油！

HAHA, here i present you my chinese online assignment. ALMOST KILLED ME MAN.
Spare me if there are any errors cause my chinese suck & it's deteriorating.

四十四个不同的性格的人等于一个我们。
以上是我中四班的集体照。可惜我没有我们中三的集体照不然每个人一定能看得出分别。在中四那年那张，每个人都有互动而且又特别套过我们共同有的班级衬衫而在中三的那张，每人只为了需要照相而笑.
以前在小学六年级时，老师曾说过中学的朋友们会成为我们一身中最好的朋友可是我没有相信她。因为以前只认为六年级的朋友就是我永远的好朋友。但现在除了和我一样中学的校学朋友和新中学朋友，我已经和六年级的朋友们断绝联络了。现在我们思想已成书多了，所以我认为只要有恒心，只要能相信，朋友一定会一直在身边。

就因为每个人在中三和中四那两年里都是在一样的班，别人都认为我们之间的友情是在这两年里培养出来的。可是奇妙的是，在中三那年，我根本就不认识每个人。在那整年内，大家只和中二的朋友们去食堂吃。下课时，只约中二的朋友一起回家。我也不例外. 别人也许会猜说我现在的好朋友是中二的朋友可是他们是我在中四才真正认识的。幸亏有两位很关心我们的两位新级任老师，不然这一切都不会发生。她们为我们做的其中一样事是她们特地为我的班举办了很多活动让我们增进我们彼此之间的感情。

虽然在毕业典礼那天我没看到任何人因伤心而哭，我知道每个人的心中都有种说不出的不舍。我也知道是因为我们都懂我们不会断绝联络。

毕业后，我相信每个任回想起来都认为中四那年虽然是很忙的一年。但因为有了一大群的老师和好朋友协助对方，中四那年可说是过得最丰富的，最难忘的。
（：

Tired of the scores of masks that i'll have to communicate with
Stay away she'll say. No way being alone she'll say.
Always indescribable
I have the urge to be masked but remain genuine before the world is screwed by the multitude of masks

Let it out, let it all out every once in awhile
Until one feel better, one will stand
One will fight on but please don't insist that one can't crash for a moment.
For, continuing after failing is what makes a braver person. (:

2010-04-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

When i thought it was getting better.

)':

I'm freaking stressed ):

& i'm missing everyone like mad.

Because life's like this

2010-04-14T20:10:00.002+08:00

The more i look back at the photos, the more i miss you guys.
Ain't going to put the photo back into my file for the third time i guess.

My friends seem to be sad. No, some are sad.
& i feel sad cause they are.
How i wish we can all be together & support each other all the time. hahaha
Remember our wish to flood the same school together? (at least i vaguely rmb i guess?)
Our wish to be to on the stage together.
Oh well, our wishes are always so 4-5'09. (:

Juliana, grumble less! :/

Fade

2010-04-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

I miss ms tang's, ms ong's, mdm rani's, mr woon's and sometimes mr tan's lessonssssssssss
): ): Their lessons were so much livelier!
I can fall asleep in almost every lecture now,
partially due to factory in flames and the boring monotonous, no jokes, no suaning lectures.

Well, complaining makes people emo.

& Oh, sisssy & ahmeng & gabby with the 3 bearsssssss! I miss you guys too ):
Soulsisssssy! I hope you'r online now! so we can crap!
I miss everyone!

Even the stars sometimes fade to grey,

even the stars hide away
but colours of flowers can eventually lighten up the spirit, someday

Feather like~

2010-04-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like blogging my day out on Good friday cause i've always had alot of fun with my dear friends! (:

BIMBOS. hahaha.

Basically, dinner out with them was super nice! (:

Oh, i love you guys so. :D

& eileen! eyecandy~

The sun was merciless today ):

Got me burnt like ?! hahaha

I'm going to get tanned! I like.

haha!

Sometimes when one asks whats wrong with you

One should be saying, Whats wrong with me?

Crappy

2010-03-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

Ytd, i was so happy i'm gg back today.

Today, i felt so sad after i was back.

Crappy person, crappy mood, crappy day.

I'm so sorry for spoiling the fun mood in jurong ):

[esp Eileen and Ms tang who were like quite high with the games...]

Went back to AC after that.

i think i'm not me.

Again, back to the rule ; Crappy person, crappy mood, crappy me.

Idk how i should feel? Ha.

2010-03-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

I wanna be there now!

Take a breather

how.

Thorns

2010-03-21T22:00:00.002+08:00

I know i can't avoid.

Everyone is fitting in & i have to.

Looking all those things i used to see everyday feels so good yet it makes me wierd.

&hmm, my god grandpa died. I don't really know you but I hope you'll leave happily.

Meow

2010-03-13T23:47:00.001+08:00

My classmate was saying, 'My best friend ....'

& i saw your face in at the back of my mind.

hahaha. i didn't like to use the term my best friend.

I used to think it was so cliche

Yet i'm using it so often now!

(i admit i always talk abt JSS while my friend talks abt St.margs.)

Hahahaha. Idk if its just me going crazy though.

Whether halfway through lessons or while i'm chatting with Jacq,

faces always appear at the back of my mind.

Cause you guys know i miss you so much. (:

I've decided on hockey & i'm preparing myself to those crazy trainings.

(idk if it'll be crazy though)

& i'll hit my way into team! (hopefully)

HAHAHA.

Ohmy, i wish we can go crazy together always! hahaha.

I think i'm in love with my best friend.

wait, gay marriages ain't approved yet. HAHAHA.

I still feel that i'm too cold. Perhaps still abit of the I. Unlike the dominant E last time.

2010-02-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

only when you see things through my perspectives, thn you can uds.
explanation doesn't help.
Try to win, at least survive the race.

2010-02-21T19:54:00.000+08:00

2010-02-16T22:13:00.001+08:00

I'm so glad i know that i'm not the only one going through all this shit.
At least there are some old friends that are thinking along the same wavelength. :D

Sometimes, things may sound cliche but thats the truth!
I went through all those shittttt & i'm going to go through all these shit again! (:(:
but, i needddd help. ): & idk what kind of help.

Determined

2010-02-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

THE TEMPTATION IS SO....!
BUT. i'm just going to stay good.
Say no to too much crazy fun like you know what.

btw, hockey, photography or back to band?! ):

2010-02-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

In the midst of finding out who i really am.
mentally?
my character?

2010-02-07T00:16:00.000+08:00

My dear, at least you tried (:

& now we know

Now, its time to untangle and keep those memories aside.

When i saw your face turn red,

when i heard you choking while you try to speak

I knew it's happening

It's hurting.

2010-02-04T19:29:00.001+08:00

This sucks.

2010-02-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hello people! (:
i doubt people are coming to my blog though cos its been dead for eons.

I am BURNT BURNT BURNT + electrocuted(only some know the insider joke!) hahaha.
These few days in ACJC made me realise alot of stuffs.
I tried adapting.
Ya. but we are still different!
I'm really happy i found one girl who is from bukit batok sec.
It's rare to find someone who is from a neighbourhood school man. :/ & it feels so good!
LIKE, WE ARE NEIGHBOURHOOD SCHOOL STUDENTS. (: YAY.
There are only like 12 jurong students out of 950++ J1s

I'm having a problem about taking 3H2 + 1H1 or 4H2. I need people to tell me about it!
& i'm having trouble thinking about taking physics or biology. DIE. :/
I really hope i can survive H2 econs. ):
Seems super tough.
i'm going to pray hard that i can really find good friends that i can mug together with!
LIKE THOSE GOOD PEOPLE I FOUND IN JSS. (:
Mug together, play together, soar together! (:

GREATEST INFLUENCE IN YOUR LIFE.
WHOWHO? hahaha.

hohoho, my gastrics is kiilling me.
BYEEEEE. hahahaha

2010-01-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

Something is bugging me
can't tell exactly what
suffocating?
haha
what a joke huh.
who would believe?

most useless person on the world, why cant you even sort what whats wrong.

2010-01-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

aint thinking

aint imagining

grab a book (:

how i wish i could fight the temptation to go online & finish reading 2 of books & finish what i want. :/

2010-01-18T11:00:00.001+08:00

Get crazy for awhile cause craziness is the BEST MEDICINE. :D!
Infecting people with craziness! (:
HAHA.
LUVVVVV. :D

disappearance.
jump into the world of living with purely satisfaction on every minor thing
into paradise.

2010-01-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

I just love it when i go to my friend's blog and realise that our thoughts are the same.
Esp Zhiye's, PJ's, QT's, XW's..
AHHHHH.
): ): ): ):

Why are humans so afraid of changes?
I couldn't explain this too cause i'm one who is afraid of changes.

I love you, my friends :')

Don't surrender to those ppl donned with masks.

2010-01-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

Left with O levels results
Left with a heavy heart thinking bout the future
Left thinking whats next
It's the official Grad day i guess. At least it felt a little similar.

Great friends. I don't want to leave you all man. I guess i don't have to list all the names out right?! We are definitely along the same wavelength (:
If we ever go to the same JC, we ve to mug hard man.
Don't surrender to those ppl donned with masks.

Seriously, i don't get whats with expectations
pursuing degrees when you'r not interested
like damm, if you don't unds me well enough, dont judge.
some times, i think that i'm merely some one who is following what other ppl couldn't do it themselves. like helping them to fulfil their own dreams? Wth right.

I think i'm in love with SAJC alr. :/
BUT ITS DAMM FAR.
I said it was alright, but coming to think of it, it's seriously v far. HOWEVER, if i like it, i'll enjoy being there.

HOHOHO. WHAT DO I WANT? BANGGGGGG THE WALLLLL.

2010-01-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

Everyone are thinking about their future route (okay maybe not everyone, most of them)
yet,

i am still in a trance

Results are coming to hunt us. :/

2009-12-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Lost.
I think i ve so much to say but i just couldn't express them in words.
Thoughts running wild in my mind. :/
What if
what if
what if...
i feel so
i feel so
i feel so?
1 yr has just went by like that.
reflect!
I did lots of rubbish stuffs
stupid decisions
good decisions
crazy mistakes
It's just the defiant me.

I'll make good use of tmr, the coming yr.
I'll start with the aim of finishing one book.
I'll not reveal what it is until i've accomplished it.

1. Finish that book
2. Excercise more
3. Stay in contact with EVERYONE.
4. Continue improving myself
5. Make decisions that i'll not regret.
...

2009-12-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

I really think that i suck at human relations, as in interrelations
I do appreciate
I am thankful
but i don't know how to express my gratitude
don't dare to be too close to that person
don't dare to be too good with that person
don't know how to communicate
I know nothing, other than just saying thank you very much.

seriously, this sucks. HELL LOT.
Can someone teach me how? !@#$%^&

2009-12-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

I'M BACKKK! I'm back from taiwan and 1 week of being sick. :/ Previosly was feeling bloated of the whole day and next was flu. :/

I had fun in taiwan~ Shopping~ Too bad i didn't go to 淡水漁人碼頭 & Wu lai. These 2 places have superb scenery! ): We went 淡水 but we thought it would be pretty tough for my granny to go thus we cancelled. Wu lai was cancelled cos we spent too much time jumping. :/ Hhaha! You shall see it later!

On the plane!

This was take 9 yet my cousin was still on the ground! hahaha. Now you know why we cancelled the trip to wu lai ):

This dog knows that he should be looking into the camera! hahaha. Obedient doggy(:

You can tell i was shocked. :/

Dayna cousin > "I am only one person, how to take photos with 2 persons?"

I hope i'll be fine tmr! Cos i'm meeting 4-5 ppl for trekking?! Idk what is the exact definition though. I hope it'll be fun (:

I took this photo! nice nice? :P

Watching you walk away after turning back but it's alright. (:

Bleak

2009-12-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

The deep connection between us is no longer there.
My best bud, Mich! I miss you alot. I really miss the times where we talked for the whole day. :/
I have so much things to talk to you abt cos sometimes i could only link to you. (uncountable)
We discussed abt lots of stuffs & secrets bet us of course(:
& i feel like catching up with sher but i think we've not talked for v long & it ll feel v weird. :/
& Sel, where are you.
& Jaslyn & Mel! WHEN ARE WE GG TO BOWL ):

Nevertheless, I'm meeting XW, KS and others tmr(:
I miss them too! & we are going ice skating on sunday!
I AM V HAPPY NOW. (simple explanation!)
& Oh, i'm going overseas like soon. (Happier!)
I want to travel around the world & see the world!

Good friends will be with you for life & they can do what boyfriends do too.
Friends that went through all the obstacles with you glow like a pearl(: A precious pearl.
Haha. Much inspiration taken from friends' blog.
& Zhiye! I love hugs too! ( i didn't know that there were so many meanings and definitions behind hugs)

why are we always expecting more from others,
why not expect more of ourselves instead? Growing up!

Bleak.

Even my uncle is pestering me to decide my future route, as in JC.

I have to make a choice & i don't have much choice. :/

Cos SS & EL really killed me.

2009-11-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

I suddenly thought of 4-5~!
HAHAHA.
Talked to QT & is talking to hisyam now
HAHAHA.
I'm laughing like a maniac in front of the computer now. HAHA.
I seriously miss everyone!
QT's stupid sound effects
Laughing along with Hisyam
Bombing each other qns with Eileen.
WG's loud voice & racist jokes ( how can i miss that. I'm so bad, HAHAHA)
Hisyam says that lameness runs in his blood now but i think it runs in everyone's blood now esp those in 4-5. HAHAHA.
i'm getting too high & this is dumb.
OHHHH! i want to go ICE SKATING AND TO THE ZOOOOOO.

2009-11-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

HALOHALOHALO.

I'm pissed pissed pissed off today. :/

Idk whats with today, i met one guy who is working at the primary school i went today.

He is so not gentleman. -.- I was new there today and he didn't even help when i asked him questions.

& only after i've graduated then i realised some truth about some people.

& it made me rather upset and disappointed but not yet 100% mad. Maybe 50%.

Fine, i'll endure. Giving in makes the world a better place right? I'll try to. (: ([Imust]

Look on the positive side~

Hisyam's parents helped us to book the chalet at Chevrons alr!

There are lots of facilities there [ but no beach ): ]

The venue is rather friendly i guess & so i hope that we'll all have fun!

& I'm looking forward to 6th Jan. :D

& oh! I met Eileen, the gossip queen for dinner ytd.

Dinner at 9.40pm, 9.40pm. Mind you, its 9.40pm. hahaha!

but i was the one who asked her out right after her work! Heh.

We talked & talked alot. & i love these kind of chatting sessions with her. Heh. :D

Lets leave those 'weirdos' alone & do stuffs just as told.

Feigning ignorance?

Backstabing people?

Smiles might just be only a pretence.

Self-centeredness and just being tactless

Wait, others would still say i'm over sensitive but that msg really mad me disappointed.

2009-11-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

I'm turned off by the idea of working alone man. :/ Need to carry books alone almost every morning and its even heavier than my bag! & i can't even talk to anyone i know. I'm so bored at work everyday. & i've to face my supervisor who is older than my mum. NAGGIER. Whenever i'm at the cashier, she would nvr fail to nag. CONSTANTLY. However, she can be quite good! She will praise me when i do things correctly (not saying that i always key wrong :/ ) :P Seriously, when one goes out to work, one have to face all sorts of ppl. Ridiculous? She tend to act whenever the manager is around.

& i don't like it. HYPOCRITICAL?! QT found the perfect word for me. Haha. Hopefully when sec 1 orientation comes, more people can come to accompany and work will be much easier and fun? haha!

I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO MEETING MY BATCH MATES AND JUNIORS ON WED!

I think i look as if i have make up on my face? & Fatin claims that her cheek muscles are tired due to smiling toooo much! Haha

I think you turned back but i left.

Whats the point when you kicked one away and try chasing after.

2009-11-17T20:25:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THIS PHOTO!

but andrea freaked out over this photo. HAHA. & so its away from the big screen!

Went for work this morning and was plagued by my sinus. -.- Somehow, it sort of escalated into a flu? Haha

Horriblehorrible. I hate it! :/ My nose is still red red red. haha!

Ytd, some classmates met up to play badminton but i didn't manage to turn up):

Was too late by the time i reached JE cause they were about to leave. However, its alright!

Cause LiangYueh said he's gg to organise one that is later!

Hopefully i can be free for the whole of next week(: Got to make up for this week.

Things to do: - Go out with Shanghai Clique

-Band bbq

-Go out with Saxophone section

-Class Gathering next week(someone told me once every month. :O I've forgotten who is it. OHYA, I WANT ECP IN DEC!)

-Swimming lessons.(I must at least get bronze eh. :/ I'm only at intermediate 1?! burn fats!)

-Hiphop or whatever dance! :D (w PJ, QT, EL ...)

-SHOPPING

-Dramas!!!

On a side note, i think i'm gg crazy about the times we spend together in school!

I even dreamt of going back for 'O's. :/

I felt weird in that dream.

In that dream, i was outside the exam hall waiting for the commencement of the exam but i had this weird feeling that i've taken the exam. Lol

The next photo!

I shall publish a few photos in every post so that i can see 4-5 ppl in every post! :D haha!

2009-11-14T17:14:00.023+08:00

O's are finally over! BUT
I'm feeling pretty lost. :/
Nothing to do
Nothing to look forward to
Nothing to dread
Nothing to ...
AHHH. It just feels weird!
I WANT TO GO BACK FOR THE FUNNY LESSONS ):
I WANT TO GO BACK FOR LESSONS, BUT NO EXAMS. PURELY JOKES FROM TEACHERS.
HOHOHO.
I think i'm mad.
Everyone wants to stay at home yet i want to go back to school. -.-
CRAZY
I just feel empty. lost? SIAN

So much for the tough journey we went through.
The ups and downs
THE EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER RIDE.
It feels good that its finally over
but it doesn't feel good when i know that i have no schedule to follow :/
I really appreciate those who were with me when i couldn't take it
couldn't take it that my el and ss wasn't improving. :/
Now, its over. I shall say one last time, I screwed up my el & ss papers. I made lots of careless mistakes for other papers too. -.- How DUMB.
Seriously, i must thank hisyam & ks alot, cos i always bomb them.
K, i shall not talk about O's.

Ahhh, I just saw the video!
Kind of made me tear abit. :/
Quite sad eh
Everyone went separate ways right after grad lunch
When will be our next gathering?
Who will ever organise or iniate a class gathering without the usual few organising?
Will we even talk to one another?
Idk why like suddenly so emo. :/
Crazy! but i abit scared? :/
):

But people! Must really keep the disc(the video) ms lim and ms tang made for us.
Its really sweet of them(:
One last nagging from ms lim
One last funny talk from ms tang."Okay! Hao le!"
Hopefully we'll have more of it during CGs.
Sadist. :/

I WANT ALL THE CLASS PHOTOS FROM MS LIMMMM. ITS ALL IN HER CAMERA.

2009-11-08T14:03:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHH. :/
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ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.
Weird feeling bugging me!

2009-10-12T16:23:00.000+08:00

Aww!
How i wish i am now by the beach,
listening to the soft hums from the crashing waves
the cool feeling of the waves splashing against my feet,
the wind brushing against my cheeks.

Wtih friends by my side while we talk about anything & everything!
Of course, with my hands in the air.
How i yearn to say - O's is finally over!
yet there are 1 month till the last day.

2009-10-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

SHAGGGGG
Everyone is getting 'shaggier' or is it just me? HAHAHA.
Eye bags and dark eye circles are haunting me!
:/
Even sleeping at 10 plus doesn't help to reduce the size of these bagggs! ):
Have been feeling kind of sleepy these few days eh. & there goes my mood.
Quiet.Crazy.Quiet.Crazy.
Hahaha. Timebomb!

Ohya, We celebrated Ms Tang's birthday & she actually took it for real that i asked her to treat me lunch. -.-
Lunch = Mini celebration for her birthday.
It was when the celebration was about end that she asked me. " so this is the lunch? " (or sth like that)
Like so hahaha?
I've forgotten about what to write for Explain fully, In your own words & stuffs.
In your own words qns = rephrase whole thing or only some? when is it that we have to rephrase the whole thing or some? CRAP.
A tough nut to crack.

Mr Woon - "You are confused of differentiation alr."
Look, what a perfect timing to forget differentiation basics. :/

Seems like all my theory is disappearing into thin air!
"POOOF" HAHAHAHA.
Crash course for content?

I just felt like loading this picture! Can you see WeiGuang's face?
Is he laughing at us or?
Most probably saying " eating while taking photo & bbqing?" hahaha!

Seventeen days left.

2009-10-02T21:51:00.001+08:00

On impluse, i really felt so much like shouting

It was as if the defiant me is back from hiding.

I seriously think that my mood swings are HELL BAD.

One moment, i could be joking, having fun, smiling.

At the next moment, i would be silent. Somehow i would just gaze away when i feel like someone will be starting a conversation. Shying away?

Like shit. Maybe i am still too immature to be able to accept comments shooting like shards of glass directly to my face.

I will create a "friendly" wall whereby i would be able to accept such comments.

LEARN AND GROW UP.

Somehow, i agree with PJ in one of her posts.

Why do we need to put on a pretence? Why?

Shooosh!

There is this sense of insecurity & there is some sort of delimma here.

1- YAY. I improved

2- but is this pure luck or have my standard improved?(EL)

3- I doubt my ability

Still, i would prefer to think that it was pure luck. I have to ocntinue pushing myself for English! :/

I'm starting to like writing compo... However, i'll be dreading it V SOON.

WORLD.WORLD.WORLD.

REALITY.REALITY.REALITY.

There are always disappointments and stuffs.

Now, i choose to believe that we are like rockets waiting for take off.

We will unleash our potential in the exam hall when the time comes!

FAITH.(diminishing though. HAHA!)

True friends are those who will be there with you through the blazing, rocky and torturous journey.
Thanks lovelies. QT, EL, SY, PJ, A. (:

Ps. I really don't like my tuition teacher! BOOOM. :/

Wake up call~

2009-09-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

BOOOM Paper one for phy was disastrous!
However! I'm still going to enjoy myself firsttt!

Was with my baby cousin,Dayna today.
Sooo cute~
While we were walking, she was mumbling some songs or sth?! haha.
& i've got little miss sunshine keychain!
Dayna took a blue capsule which contained of little misters):
Thus i went back again! Took a yellow capsule and was secretly wishing that it will contain the yellow little miss sunshine!
& YES. HAHAHA.
Monday, Doomsday!
I forsee dark heavy clouds over our heads. Triple blow ~
Going to bring my comfort foodd! Sooo sad for hisyam cause he is going to return fast ya.
Hahaha. Why am i so high today?!
Probably cause i had fun at Lynn's house today. Cash card monopoly. That was so cool!

Gotta recharge my brain tonight~
Hopefully it will be a dreamless night! Goodnight!

Walking towards the finishing line, where the ray of light will appear again.
Now, it'll just be a tiny stone making me trip once in a while.
WAKE UP CALL.

Till the end!(:

2009-09-22T17:45:00.000+08:00

QT keep emphasising that we are left with less than 6 weeks.
Go for it!(:

2009-09-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

Smile.Sulk.Scream.

Didn't feel like revising at all too.

If my results dropped, i am the only one responsible.

I am aware of my attitude now.

Desperately in need of a wake up call

Desperately in need to know why i "hack care" about this exam. I was so uptight and nervous the other time round. :/

Got to stop having mental blocks man. :/

Hopefully, my results that dropped will serve as a wake up call.

Now, i hope that the teachers can be more lenient eh?

Milk tea is one of my best friend now.

Is this what Mr woon call comfort food? :O

~~Terrible.~~
~~I dreamt of getting back my chemistry paper and Ms Ong gave me a lecture.~~
~~I think my Chemistry paper 2 this time round is really so much worser than Prelim 1.~~
~~"Go concentrate on your paper 1" this was what she kept saying when we asked her about our paper 2.~~
~~Is this good or bad? :/~~
~~Physics and Biology papers were not any better too.~~
~~Hai.~~
~~Freaking sian.~~

2009-09-04T21:28:00.001+08:00

Teachers' Day Celebration was SUPERB.
The Book is on the Table!
& the funny obstacle course to smack the coconuts.
Like wow.

AHHHHH!
So sian. :/
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Been slacking like nobody's business.
Someone teach me how to study consistently. :/
It's v tough to try to be a crazy mugger eh.
SETYGLHUIJOKPLJJKNLKN:OIHO

Neither here nor there.
Someone tell me where i should stand?

Shall go to sleep now! Knocked out.

2009-08-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

School can be FUN!
HAHAHA.
Played so much with Andrea, Shiya and PJ today.
Shiya & I were caught off guard by the 2 teachers behind us!
haha.
I can cycle, I can cook fried rice(at least i could), i can swim( but i'm a noob) & I can bowl.
Unlike... Haha!
& that was what Ms tang said, except she couldn't cook! hahaha
Shall update again when i feel like it.

2009-07-27T15:25:00.003+08:00

The familiar flood of panic rushed through her veins and roared in her head.
While screaming, hands were held high, surrendering to all the "what ifs".
If the world could be a wonderland,
perhaps there wouldn't be such a word- troubles.
Still, shall we smile now?
& what about english?

2009-07-24T14:41:00.003+08:00

"We'll improve on this together"

This has really soothed my usually tensed mind whenever i had to wait for EL papers.

If it's still possible. (I do hope it is)

Buck up(:

We haven't had any maths lessons for the whole week alr?

Ah. :/ I had so many things on my mind to blog about when i was in the bus. Yet, now :/

& ya. I hope sunday will be funnn. Badminton? Haha

Skills are super rusty, go or not to go, maybe not?

Dilemma.

Went right to JP with QT to buy some stuffs & i realised something.

You're kept in a small little chamber hidden somewhere in my head.

No longer free to linger to disturb my peace of mind.

Only at times, where they reappear to give me a warning.

Glad.

Give like you've nothing to lose - qt

Suddenly this phrase rang in my ears.

Maybe we should try & give everything like you've nth to lose although we are going through hell.

4-5 people ain't boring. Ha

Let's stop the trend of having bloodshot eyes.

Friends will always be there.

Now, this post seems like a reflection on how little or much i've done. Haha.

Goodbye(:

2009-07-14T14:12:00.003+08:00

GE1 was finally over on last friday!(:

& yesterday was class gathering.

Thanks andrea, Liang yueh, KS, QT for helping me out!

Thanks QT, Zhiye & SH for getting satay.

& lastly thanks andrea for enduring the heat & fighting back the fatigue to accompany my half dead body to search for satay. Although we couldn't? Hahaha

After walking to the 2 markets as the last 2 stops to search for satay, we walked into the Fairprice extra in the petrol kiosk.

I raised my voice to call for andrea to come over once i saw the pack of chicken satay on stick.
Can you imagine?!

1st trip was to shengshiong-nth

2nd trip was to NTUC - nth

3rd trip was to both markets - nth

& finally at the petrol kiosk- 1 packet of 20 sticks for $7 plus, crazy isn't it?

This sporty girl still had so much energy while my legs were already wobbly-similar to jelly? haha

& so my knees gave way many times. Hahaha.

&couldn't piggy back Jasmine or was is andrea?

Wii was super fun & we could almost forget about the lactic acid accumulating in the muscles. ;D

Starting the fire was the most troublesome task ever! :/

it took what seemed like eternity.

& there was like Truth of Dare. I was super unlucky.

My chair wasn't even warm yet & i've to decide on truth or dare.

Then teachers left & a few of the crazy us hoped onto miss tang's car. :O

Shiya & I were so afraid that she's going to drive out & make us walk back. Hahaha!

Then slowly, most left.

Leaving around 15 of us? & we left together around 11.20pm

FUN, REALLY FUN

Got to blame myself for taking to so long to bathe until my nose is like a tap now.

Just had to sleep like a pig. :D 0030 to 1010 & 1200 to 1400.

& the tap is closed.

Cheapest way ever to recover from runny nose.

Horrible truth tomorrow):

Face it!

Silly mistakes, silly actions.

Seriously in need of a change

Scenes come rushing into my brain like an angry bull

Tell me who would listen & give advice.

Sometimes i really wish god will sit by me and tell me what to do.

2009-07-07T16:48:00.004+08:00

HOHOHO! It's been millions of seconds since i've been here eh!

Finally MT O lvl oral is over! ;D
I thought they will talk about YOG or AYG, because the passage is related to sports?
Ended up, it was about plastic surgery?!
Stunt for a second & i just kept laughing? :/ (because there was nth in my head! but i blabbered non-stop)
& another torturing paper is over today(:
Another few papers coming up & it'll be over then we can celebrate during marking day!
For the past few papers, some were really horrible for me):
Especially phy and EL, Mr tan & Ms tang must be vomiting blood alr!
& my horrible handwriting for Geog & SS, they must be having a hard time trying to decipher my handwriting. :P
Haha.
People, last few papers & its over(:
For those who haven't take their MT oral, Goodluck & Jiayou!

Nobody knows, only you, yourself.
Have Confidence, don't doubt, you gotta believe in yourself(:

Ps. Whats with blogger?! I can't load photos):

2009-06-06T22:00:00.003+08:00

GOO JOON PYO(:

We talked about Goo joon pyo & Ji hoo all the way today during the SPCA fund raising.

Jasmine joined Eileen, Jolene and me.

HAHAHA! My heart is melting man, this scene that Goo Joon Pyo saved Sicao is just so sweet!

& his straight hair is wow.

Suave! I feel like watching all the episodes at a go. Heh, but now i shall go & sleep.

2009-05-30T22:05:00.002+08:00

Felt sick this morning):
So, i conclude that pills are inevitable for me when major exams approaches.
Slept & slept & watched DVD today.
& I'm enjoying boys over flowers now.
Zzz. I'm drowning in guilt man!
I have to mug hard alr & solve my doubts.
CHINESECHINESE.MONDAY!
This fact is getting on my nerves.):
I'm dammed tensed up now.
(I suddenly remembered once, in primary school, I wrote in the school journal that i was exicted about exams when i wanted to write worried)
我一定要准备好后天的'O'水准。
大家，加油!(:

There'll always be sunshine after rain. The sun can be shining brightly eventhough its raining though(: Lets mug hard, for tomorrow, for prelims, for O. You said it, you'd better do it.

2009-05-22T14:50:00.008+08:00

If you are going through hell, keep going

Just because i had been rude to her before, everything just seemed to be my fault.
Every single word from me is just another scolding earned.
Your words won't discourage us and hit me down to the floor again.
I will do my best, so that i wouldn't have to see her again.
Jolene & Eileen, i will keep your words in my mind

Rest if you must but don't quit

2009-05-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

Seriously, life has been mundane. :/

& i'm thinking if i should delete this blog.

Its rotting anyway.

Really need to plan time well!

Started out with Physics today & it isn't fruitful at all. :/

Carelessness is stealing marks away from me! 1 grade! Dumb

& EL, Ms tang is complaining about my plot.

Been trying to twist the same plot everytime :D & it always revolve around marriage

& she was the one who told us to develope gd polt & twist it

I'm trying. :/

MONDAY! I'm looking forward to monday(: Shaoying & Qiantong will be hereee!

Lets help each other(: but too late to save my chinese.

& somebody, please lecture me when i don't pay attention during lessons!

Am i always wearing my emotions on my sleeves?

Ought to consider thoroughly.

Some picture long long ago, in Shanghai

2009-04-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

I COULDN'T IMAGINE YOU REALLY DID THAT.
DISGUISED AS AN ANGEL.
do you really need company that desperately? :/

2009-04-24T15:01:00.002+08:00

A white mice is chasing me!
Haha, i can imagine myself in that scene. I was in hysterics! I even teared while laughing.
That was what happened to Ms Lim previously,
i would really go crazy if i was chasing it and it suddenly turned back and chase me.
SMART MICE

Yesterday was Bio, was plucking the petals off the flower. It was fun to be poking into the flower's ovary and discovering those tiny things in there. Of course, there was pollen within the petals. & my nose turned red. Damm? Haha. But its fun(: The petals are pretty

Physics Mock SPA today! Went MAD again! This time, together with me screaming was Shaoying. This wasn't a Mock at all, everyone was talking & complaining how crappy and tough was the setup! My setup took around 40 mins, actually i had already set it up correctly, yet i missed one pathetic wire! Jokers.
The rest of the days were boring~

& now my Computer is warning me that it is in a critical mode, low batt. :/
So goodbye

2009-04-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

Drained out.

Haven't been paying attention in lessons these few days.
Really too tired to be able to sit up straight for the whole day. BOOM
Why am i feeling so tired everyday?!
SHAGSHAGSHAG.
Can't seem to work! All the SPAs are coming up & i just screwed Chem mock SPA happily today.:/
Practically left most questions blank, source of error and identifying ions.
Reached home and here i am infront of the computer.
Is there anything called the motivation jab? I need it.
Have to start brushing up my Amaths and Humans alr. :/ YES. Humanities, but how?
We can't afford a C for our only Humanities!
No more brain juice.
People! Motivate me, so i can motivate you too. :D

Stepped down on Saturday, felt numb until when one of my juniors msg me then I knew how important we have been to them. Maybe not as much? Idk
It has been around 4 years? I've been complaining that i want get to out of that place and go home to sleep and rest. Now i feel so empty sometimes to be not wanting to go home fast. That sounds weird.
Juniors, you've got to work hard and prove that a small band can beat a bigger band.
I have confidence in the new committee, just have the spirit to play and lead. Have fun!
3 years, its been fast & i'll definitely miss my batchmates and fellow band members.

Sometimes, we have to excercise self control.
So that we wouldn't be sacrificing some other important parts.
I know you have to be outta my mind, know it. Do it. - This is for you, for me, for everybody who understands what i mean.

BLOWBLOWBLOWW.

2009-04-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

Good friday was good and fun.
Finally brought a new wallet, but i'm starting to regret. HELL. Its alright.
Sentosa & Shopping. I want more of it, but we can't afford to waste time like this. :/
& One of the photos we took reminded me of 2-2'o7

Results dropped drastically & I've broken a record to fail Amaths. First time ever.
Anyway there'll be a retest. :D So i'm perfectly fine with it, expected to fail anyway.

So much for No pain No gain & everyone is here with you.
It doesn't give me any motivation to do anything. :/
Still, i have to persevere & search for the mentality to study.
BOO :[
Ahh, comeon girl! I'll soon have ample time. ( I'll definitely miss my juniors)
No worries, everybody is going through the same ordeal. :)

Goodbye.

2009-04-03T19:24:00.002+08:00

We've Sliver. :D JSB, we rock.
Sec 3s, we'r stepping down soon, buck up to get your desired posts alright? :D

Today was mad! Totally worn out straight after SYF.
Slept through the day from 3plus to 6plus, right after i reached home.
Tests were so bad, that i wonder if everything went into my brain last night.
Maybe i was mentally too worn out that i couldn't think properly.
Amaths was so bad until i couldn't even do simple questions, no doubt a F9, the most E8.
Physics? I was so smart to skip a MCQ qns, i should have written down any alphabet!
I guess, everything that i'm saying now is just a excuse. Stupid excuses from this silly one.
I must learn from my stupid mistakes. :/

YOU'VE GOT TO BUCK UP.
OTHERS CAN DO IT, SO CAN YOU.
train your mentality

2009-03-28T16:34:00.002+08:00

When would i ever learn to take a deep breath, slow down my thoughs, slow down my steps and chill for a moment, have i been too crazy these days? Knock out

That is the pace that everyone is having now, i guess?
I can't wait to finish my book, serial killer!
Sudden change of the genre of book i read. I find it rather interesting, other than romance and life stories. Whats that called agian? Bio-? graphy? :/
Pooof, I've nth to talk about alr.

One last lap, do our best & its over.

2009-03-22T19:22:00.004+08:00

CRAMCRAMCRAM

I think i've completed all the homework, ( w exceptions, SS!)

Tests are coming up alr. BOO.

Tonnes of to study. & theres not enough time for revision.

yet i'm blogging. :/

From morning till night, the computer is always beckoning me to switch it on.

I've got to stop myself from these temptations.

PLAN before there's no TIME to CRAM.

I want to break free & go to the beach! the sun! Perspire. :D JUNE HOLIDAYS(: (lets wait]:)

Yesterday's sunset around my house :D

2009-03-15T16:24:00.002+08:00

When i thought it was all over,

Everything started out to be boring and a little of a rush. Turned up to be almost late for Band ended up running into the room. While waiting for the first rehersal, my head felt so heavy as if i could fall into my dreamland any moment. At the 2nd rehersal things were slightly better.
Performance, Scary sight. -.- The whole theatre was filled with people. During the finale, I kept scanning for people i know but i saw none. There was just too many people around. & yes I tried my best to smile, because the fright and tension in me was building so fast. Some know, i still have stage fright. -.- Dad came to send me home(: but i didn't get to meet 4/5 people except for Duqun. :o Wondered how they would dress, hmm.

I realised i could hide them so well.

Still. Stuck in the head.

2009-03-12T21:20:00.003+08:00

My mind is always so screwed up, that i can't even straighten my thoughts and make them positive.
What Ms Chang said today struck me exceptionally hard,
now with a note stuck in my mind.
'Have you ever worked hard enough for what you want?'
We made others disappointed, for our actions that seemed so minor.
How can i encourage others, when i, myself is so screwed up.
Schedules & Schedules.
Soon, it'll all be over. Soon. I hope.

2009-03-06T21:23:00.002+08:00

TAKE A BREAK! *SCREAMS*(:

Seriously, i screwed up in both practicals that i've taken. Ahh. Hopefully, its only 1 mark deducted, pray hard!
I took a rest from everything, popped into Jurong Point for a meal after 1 to 2 months. Accomplishment? Ahh dumb!
So sick of all these homework but certainly, school and lessons with those 'sisters' at the back is real fun. Straight Guy and Mee Siam ah! Your turn to bring sweets alr ah! :D
& yes, Eileen wrote: Chocolate guy( Justin), Curve Guy (Benedict), Mee Siam(Hisyam), Straight Guy(WeiGuang), Eileen, Juliana.
She actually wrote that on the summary paper which we did as a group to hand in to Ms tang and Ms tang didn't even realise it until we told her to read the names. What a good laugh. :D

I'm glad i have all of my friends behind me, those words of encouragement really pushes my mentality to continue the run. Mentality to finish. So fantastic. woooh!
Everyone, lets buck up.
We'll finish the race together. 4/5 Go! Everyone shoot! :D

2009-03-01T21:32:00.003+08:00

ROUGH PATCH.

My computer is back and alive, my internet connection at a faster rate. :D
Physics SPA, horrendous.
Bio SPA coming up. I'm going to get so tensed up that i'll be humming to myself. Ahh!
Anyway, everyone is in the same trouble. Heheheh.
Goodluck everyone(:
Competitions and Exams, Chill. :D

Seriously, i think sitting at the back with that bunch of sisters is really fun and fruitful.
Hisyam & Weiguang teaches me Maths. :D
Andrea is our chill pill
Eileen, solemn & wild at times
Justin, quiet?
On the contrary, Benedict is like a radio.
That makes us(: Sisterhood. Haha but i think Benedict ain't in it.

& Since Andrea thanked me & I shall thank her too(:
I'm back on track(:
I feel the tension of SYF but sometimes there are things that are holding me back, not studies. Some other factors that just holds me back,that imaginary string tugging me so hard to resist. Nothing seems to be able to break that.
Its inevitable for everyone to feel so freaked out, exhausted, hopeless and demoralised at times but never succumb! (:

2009-02-21T14:55:00.002+08:00

Escape.

Life's busy, hectic.
She's tired. She's pretty satisfied with her life.
She doesn't know how to express herself, her EQ is v.low.
She saw and all she knew was to hide.

Grab.Run.

She fell.

See you again. Soon. Maybe.

2009-01-22T20:59:00.002+08:00

Fatigue.
Tests are over! *Smiles.
I could say, the first page of physics have alr took my calm mood away & yet friends from other classes are saying that the test is easy, like wow. & i passed my chemistry testtt! Super surprised but i've 2 marks deducted because of not labelling and wrote in 4 sig fig instead of 3. :/ Careless, careless. For bio test, everyone had different answers, weird but ms lim says she is going to consider if she is going to accept both. :D
& ahhh, BADNEWS! Our class is having banding for engligh): Nightmare): Pray hard that i'm going to stay in 4-5. I don't want other teachers, because lessons will be so boring if thats so. I'm going to pray so hard, & i promise if i get to stay, i will work doubly hard for english.
& why does all 4-5's subject teachers say that we looked so depressed and stressed during lessons? When we are not, when we'r stress, laugh it out! :O & are unresponsive, thats the unique us.
Mr woon talked about his secondary and NS life again, so interesting & funny but guys becareful when you'r enlisted, because from those cases we heard from Mr woon, its very scary, half of the face torn, bleeding. AHHH! Horrible.
I can't think of being a doctor because ms lim reminded me that we'll have to slice human meat & take organs out, gross!

Lets be satisfied & face the music,
thats the cool challenges we'll have. :D

thats enough. Bye(:

2009-01-17T21:38:00.004+08:00

Hi world.
I brought many things from popular at quite a cheap price. &I’m happy about it. :D
4 ring files for ten dollars or so.
I was so Muddle-headed that i left my homework file in band room): & had to return to school this morning to get it. Glad Mr. Ng was going to school(:
If weren’t because of the tests coming up next week. I’d not have made that extra trip.
Chinese new year is round the corner but i’m not having any mood to celebrate because We are not having chalet on those days, only for CNY eve, but maybe we could party at the same old chalet area & pool or bowling with my uncles! Let me hope, things won’t be that bad(:

I’ve to start planning and follow whatever I have.
(Pulls a long face)
Buck up everyone!
We can do it! Cheers everyone(:
Cogito Ergo Sum(: our favourite phrase.

Certain thoughts keep me alive and my mind away from you
For once or twice, as long as I can concentrate I’m fine with anything.

& before i go, some pictures taken on the day my uncle got married(: Plain simple & boring, just like some malay wedding. :O

My dad who has a young heart. A 48 man playing with kids less than 10 years of age.

Some crazy shots of me. & my hideous fringe

They were forced to pose for seconds for us to take the shot. Lol"Heely" boots did the trick. I ain't that tall.

Goodnight!

2009-01-09T21:04:00.003+08:00

Hello

Nothing much about school, but i'm satisfied that my friends are with me, helping me along, encouraging. Very much appreciated.

Everyone set goals in class, on our tables & pictures(:!

I'm going to set my priorities right.

Don't know what came into me, so tired everyday, no matter what i'm doing.

With those teachers stressing so much about O's is really tiring.

& with someone really trying to make me all f-uped with those stupid things.

I've stated my stand properly before, help by doing what you did.

totally hear no news from you until you decide what you wanted.

Those ON & OFF is killing me!

I said no tears. Plain sillyness.
If i ever said, no i can't continue to talk to you now with my current mood,

i meant i need some encourages from you.

I need no games, straight to the point. I can be happy if i want.

My dear, cos O's ain't joke.

Life's a big bang, 1 year ago

2009-01-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

HELLLO!

I've not updated like in a while. So Happy New year!
School started today. :D
Got shocked multiple times in school today.
4-5 sitting all the way to the front, like oh my! Ms tang & Ms lim has become our co-form and form teachers. Mr lau is a VP now. Hohoho.
So many changes! Subject teachers changed too, but i hope everything will more or less be the same(:
Seating arrangement is a big problem! Its changing, i don't wish to sit all the way to the back): Middle middle!
tomorrow is my dear uncle's marriage day & i've yet to see her fiancee. I want to see her. :O
& haha the elmo i've got is cute. :D

Live up to everyday,
accepting everything in life is
when you know you've matured.

2008-12-24T22:32:00.004+08:00

Its Christmas Eve.
Advanced Merry Christmas?
Shopping in Malaysia on monday,
Cheap contact lens! Such a big price difference! Go JB to get contacts man. haha
& i spotted this Everlast shoes, slightly cheaper there, but there isn't my size.
How crap? Tiring day of walking, cos mostly i don't like, though its cheaper, but its still overprized, because afterall some are brand-less? Lol
Class gathering on tuesday, got tanned & drenched.
Had fun! Seek shelter because we had no choice, raindrops got into our eyes, blinding us for the moment. So drenched & seriously funny.
Hahah. & Barbeque satay became watery satay. At least most of us had eaten our fill, except for the councilors that aren't there yet.
No photos! Cause we were all eating and bbq-ing. But i think some of the guys have some candid photos?
Goodbye.

Its so cold, is it the whether or is it just me? I don't know what my heart wants.
No topic, no sentences, so what if we want to talk to eachother. Oh Just shut up!

2008-12-14T21:14:00.002+08:00

8thDec08
Was out with shanghai clique. Watched a movie, Wild child. Nice, but i still prefer Angus, thongs and perfect snogging. We watched that on the plane from that trip to and fro shanghai. Took neos and we left people behind and took the train home. Heheh. On the train, Xinwei was the center of attention. Playing the PSP and losing balance. Heh. Only loaded one picture of us.
It was my birthday yesterday. & thanks everyone for your wishes(:

Some sucky confusion or miscomunication with the sales person in Singtel? They said i could recontract and immediately stop my current broadband, went down to the shop in westmall yesterday & they said, no i can't! Ohmy, pissed, adding on to only 8hours of sleep for a weekend, not enough. Resulting in super short tempered me. POOOF. Alright, feeling better. :D

Missing,
no need to search, cause i see it,
yet can't can't
seriously, i wonder why do i still hang around there.

2008-12-04T16:03:00.005+08:00

Days are boring without DVDs to watch.

I want to catch more DVDs during the holidays! :D

But now, i need to finish reading 2 books, english ones.

How to finish a book fast & do reviews? Anyone tell me.

I'm in a rush to complete homeworks before that very day. :D

This book Cut by Patricia McCormick is quite interesting.

About a person who cuts herself, ending up in some treatment place.

While thinking if i should cut my hair short again.

I was looking through blogshops and i found things i like, alot. I mean it.

What to do?!

That oversized tee and biker jacket just melts my heart. :O

Seriously, i have nothing to do except for homework. -.-

Work hard. :D

my mum says girls should try out new hairstyles

theres this all-smiles malay man selling chips, he had the positive attitude & i just brought it for the sake of it. Just like the flowers, brings you smiles

2008-11-24T18:10:00.009+08:00

SHANGHAI TRIP(:
I miss shanghai & the fun days i had there with the clique. :D
That Suzhou night! Everyone dashed out within 2 seconds!
We ate, laughed, joked,fell asleep in bus,got crazy and wild together.
Actually at the last few days of the trip, we spent most of the daytime on the bus together, replenishing sleeping hours.
Took loads of pictures with everyone & i've send them out, because it takes pretty long to load all the pictures & everyone knows i'm lazy. :D

Here they are, photos with the crazy ones(: ;

Seriously, i love those taken at the Pudong Airport (am i right?)

I couldn't get up the railing in time, but its still nice. Heheh

My two buddies, the taller one is Tong Yu Qing, my actual buddy, and the other girl is her best friend i guess? The just hangs around me and she is quite talkative. :D

This Mr lim (Papa Lim) just made me laugh so hard, waves*

Quan Jia Fu?

The lil kid we met during the CIP day

Family visit

Thats all, the few out of all of the many photos i took.

I feel so stuck up at home. Went to pick up Debbie Cousin at the airport on wednesday night, the supposed arrival timing was 9:30. It was delayed until 10 plus 11, had a long tough wait, because i had flu and had not jacket. -.- Forgetful me. Next day, went to work with mum, i don't like working there, tiring. If the job is only getting the books according to the booklists, not restocking books, i will more than happy to take up that job. It's okay, lack of manpower, cause i'm still considered underaged to be employed by popular. Slept on bus, everywhere that i could rest for even 5 minutes. Reached home at 5 plus, slept at 7 till the next morning. :D 14 hours of sleep, because i had no energy, didn't turn up for band, cause my mum insisted on saying no.

Been watching this DVD last few days, real nice. :D Okay. Long post alr & losts of complainging. haha, Goodbye.

2008-11-07T21:06:00.003+08:00

Silly people does silly things, i do have a very good example(:

These few days are hectic!
Tonnes and tonnes of things waiting for me to do
Homework piling up! Both in LMS and worksheets form.
I'm flying soooon!
Going to stay at my aunt's house over at tampiness,
so i don't have to get up so early! :D
My two dearest yet irritating baby cousins will be there too(:
& hopefully my uncle send me to the air port!
Things are getting so crazyy! I'm lucky i still have other friends around me. :D I love them all. Just so unlucky for certain silly things. Ahah!

Sometimes, just don't bother about the things happening around you Cos you'll feel more carefree Play like mad, Scream like mad, Laugh like mad, but ain't crying like mad. :D

Goodbye! I can't wait to see you guys at the airport. :D ENJOY. Ahah!

2008-11-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

I had the sudden rush of adrenaline to blog :D
The show at 8 pm in Channel 8 was so heartwrenching D:
I teared for many times. The mother is so emotionally strong! So much to do for her son & her daughter and husband doesn't even really care for them.
What matters more that a FAMILY that loves you. heheh
I don't know how to explain! Ahhh.
1 word, SAD):
I hope others out there help those little old grannies or grandpas when they approach you to purchase one dollars worth of tissue. This is only the little thing that we can help eh. Haha

Back to school,
Certainly boring, especially physics. CRAP man. Now i think Mother tongue is so much better. Mr lau come back to 3-5! These few days are especially busy for me. So many things to do within a week. Purchasing of last minute stuffs and some camp stuffs, i surely can't leave all of them to the rest of my batchmates. At least a few, heheh.
Goodbye & Goodnight aliens! heheh

It's getting better! Yay(:

2008-11-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

This is so boring~
Heading out soon to get some stuffs & i've yet to complete my homework!
POOOF.